Sunday, December 21, 2008

12/20

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It was a Saturday when hese babies became mine.
The highly anticipated 11/12 Jordan collezione package
Birthplace: Niketown LA (In labor from 3:30 a.m.-7:30 a.m.)

Best believe it was a struggle. Honeys everywhere came out in full force, while others chose to sleep. But here it is folks, the last Jordan pack of the year, if not all time ..bringing it back OG style with the black/red colorway of the XI's (11's) and the black/white (Taxi) color..

Thursday, December 4, 2008

Underground Broadcast

The Unbreakable

These callouses that smile on my palms
invite the waves of resolution
that have swept my soul

Departing am I,
to the sea of righteousness

Stop - Jay [J. Dilla] Dee

Big L know's her beats :)

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Our stories are singular, but our destiny is shared

IF there is anyone out there who still doubts that AMerica is a place where all things are possible, who still wonders if the dream of our Founders is alive in our time, who still questions the power of our democracy, tonight is your answer"

President Elect Barack Obama

Thursday, October 2, 2008

I don't mean to sound like a hardknock, but..

you have to be relentless
you can't put up with bullsh*t
and you got to push for what you believe in

p.s. do you like my bday gift? happy 22 from mommy & elainne:

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Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Stocks are falling as a $700 billion dollar rescue plan to bailout Wall Street is being negotiated with Congress. If approved, expenditure is set to target distressed mortgages, the root cause of the economic crisis. Will it alleviate our nation's pain, or simply spread it to everyday taxpayers?

I had a little run-in wit tha police yesterday. fck em
Just cause I move a little too quick for some 'speed limit'? bullsht

Anyway.
Realistic Optimism- acknowledging that trials& set backs are inevitable& temporary, and although everything isn't always great..somehow we will all make it through. let the light peek thru

XXO?

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

thorough in aNy borough



nostalgia setting in. cleaning and cleansing in full effect. journals half-written, old pictures reminiscent of my younger days. old vhs tapes of the Olympics, and poems scribbled on paper. report cards of the past, and pictures from trips around the world.

backtrack, turn back the page
"Though we travel the world over to find the beautiful, we must carry it with us or we find it not" Nostalgia (Feat. Masta Ace) - Marco Polo

Monday, September 8, 2008

fuel

Yo! It's been instilled in me since infinite y'all
Usin these minutes like I value the call

Put your money in the bank, and hold rank
over friends who ain't got leadership skills

I got the sheep in my eyes so I can't sleep
*******

Thursday, August 28, 2008

keep your coins, we want change

Love is a process.
Working is a process.
And political change in an arena where overcoming race relations is half of the battle itself, Barack Obama has emerged as the presidential candidate for forward progress.

Demonstrative of this powerful statement, I took notes of his speech at the Democratic National Convention:
-Obama's campaign foundation lies in our responsiblity to restore our American legacy; the "American promise" that we can manifest our individual dreams through hard work & sacrifice, and yet stand together as one U.S. family.

-Key issues underlying the demand for better healthcare, education, and a restored economy. Including investment propsals of 150 billion in attaining affordable, renewable resources of energy, and a timeline of 10 years for freeing ourselves from the financial chains & dependency on foreign oil. Emphasis on providing a world-class education for our children, and rallying for intellectual/ moral strength.-->sign up for this gameplan, yo. serious

-Obama aggresively attacked McCain's campaign, claiming that it wasn't because he didn't care about the American citizens, but that he simply "didn't know". Concrete evidence pointed to 90% of McCain's voting in adherance to the Bush administration & his definition of "midde class" as those households making less than 5 million.

45 years later MLK "I have a dream speech", and on this night, with ideas for the future & fixing our eyes on things unseen - Obama made history.

Upflifting the American promise, and asking a nation "What constitutes progress?", there was no doubt- You could feel the ground shaking with hope under a sky of fireworks.

Sunday, August 10, 2008

Rock the Bells

was amazing.

From the outset, I knew it was a dream come true with hip hop classics like Tribe & Pharcyde headlining, but to witness the music come to life in full form - LIVE?
It was Heaven in full effect.

Special thanks to:
PhotobucketElainne for helping me navigate the 215 North

Friday, August 8, 2008

Some 18,000 Chinese couples applied for Marriage today, 8-08-08.
Super cute. When it comes to the Olympics, I get super geeked out. First of all, it comes once every four years. Second, I consider champions as a celebration of the best. The best that we are capable of becoming. Gold medal all day

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

Retro ghetto

"You rock J's so smooth, if you wasn't into me I'd probably date your shoes"Photobucket
I am the light
Do you understand the metaphoric phrase “ light as a rock”
It is explaining how heavy the young lady is
You know what I’m saying king?

Friday, August 1, 2008

forever ever

hello
I only want to reflect the positive
and walk towards The Light, forever



cause I'mma believer
,
Baby.

Friday, July 25, 2008

like i mean it

Photobucket Yesterday I placed an order on Swoosh.com, the exclusive online account for Nike employees, and swooped up the babies pictured above. A price tag of $60? I gotta holla! Plus mama be working 27 hour weekend shifts, so gimme gimme some

Friday, July 11, 2008

i solemnly vow to re-enter the sneaker game
financial limitations and intellectual stimulation took over for the first half of '08
and though my prescence is still heavily felt, since I DO work at Nike

I'm bringing my A-game back

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Wednesday, July 9, 2008

I vote yes! II

PhotobucketHe from Queensbridge, I'm from Brooklyn haha if only BUT

Baby I’m blessed
If you leave me, you leaving the best
So you would have to settle for less
If you don't love me
Somebody else will

YO! I deserve better than this.
This aint no chick
wit a chip over her shoulder

Bank

Brains, power, and muscle
like Dame, Puffy, and russle
Your girl back on the hustle
you know what I been up to

Thank You Altec Lansing for allowing me to run a few beats through your system, every night. On this fine Wednesday night, I am in the process of preparing for my Economics midterm tomorrow accompanied by Biggie-esque basslines. Best believe ya girl can recite any Biggie verse at the drop of a DIME:
While others flirt, Im sewing tigers on my shirt And alligators Ya wanna see the inside, huh, I see ya later --

While educating myself on modern day economics, I ran up on http://www.bothteamsplayedhard.net/, only to discover the salaries of an elite collective of athletes that topped SportsIllustrasted Fortune50 List. Among them, 26 NBA players topped the list, including:

3. LeBron - $40.5 million
5. Kobe - $35.5 million
16. DWade - $25.0 million
18. Melo - $22.6 million24. JKIdd - $21.0 million
25. Starbury - $21.0 million

To quote the late Biggie:
"If the game shakes me or breaks me
I hope it makes me a better man
Take a better stand
Put money in my moms hand
Get my daughter this college plan, so she dont need no man"

He said Get my daughter this college plan, so she don't need no man

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Bad btches are self-made


Stay far from timid
Only make moves when ya hearts in it
And live the phrase skys the limit

Saturday, July 5, 2008

Friday, July 4, 2008

Answer: Youth

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1972, Trang Bang, South Vietnam --- Vietnamese children flee from their homes in the South Vietnamese village of Trang Bang after South Vietnamese planes accidently dropped a napalm bomb on the village

Hold On (Ft. Erykah Badu) - Pharoahe Monch

"If you don't study history, you will be manipulated." -Malcolm X

The Cries from the killing is senseless. Five years after the U.S. invasion of Iraq,
President Bush denied that the there’s any link between the faltering U.S. economy
and $10 billion a month being spent on the Iraq war.

That women and children suffer the most during times of war is not a new phenomenon. It is a reality as old as war itself. "collateral damage" is the "inexcusable murder of and other irreparable harm done to women, children and the elderly during any military offensive"

I doubt democracy has anything to do with it, when US foreign policy in the Middle East manifests itself most starkly in its impact on the children of Iraq, who continue to pay with their lives and futures for the brutal follies of our administration.

We must acknowledge our most pressing needs, concerns outside of ourselves that span the world we live in.

To the millions of children whose minds hold tremendous potential:
"Diamond, you are so beautiful.
You can change this world if you want to"

PhotobucketAnd you better believe I'll tell my children that, every single day.

Forward Progress

Friday, June 27, 2008

I vote yes!

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n. Dap Daddy
def. an extremely stylish man who walks with a strut or a swagger, ie, fly guy or dapper dan
look at that dap daddy struttin' down the street.
OR look at my baby daddy, Pharrell!

gas prices

$5 a gallon and climbing...

Thursday, June 19, 2008

Summertime

and the breeze is coming through!
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Pictured: the new Americana (Glendale, California)
First stop: Melrose
Items Sold: YSL pumps, Gucci bag, Ferragamo heels

Before embarkin' on the always pleasurable activity known as retail therapy, every boss on a budget must first Get Money, honey! A little creativity can spark unexpected revenue in one's budget; today's featured method - sell old clothes! Vintage stores in LA typically buy your old clothes during regular business hours, and reward you 35% of the item's market value. With low return rates, however, it is advisable to sell only items that you are in excess of.

Look out for me on ebay, where I'll be selling the ridiculously beautiful gear I've amassed over the years, including & not limited to: sneakers + bags
TIME TO HIT Y'ALL WITH THE NEW NEW- Elainne & I
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LIKE ITS GOLDEN baby- sweet treats
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BOOM! a little louder..
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HI IM TURNED ON
N*E*R*D - You Know What - N*E*R*D
With the '08 NBA Championship rings dispersed to the Boston Celtics, what's an Angelinian supposed to do? That never lose hope spirit, it aint over mantra ended short on Tuesday, with Game 5. One 131-92 annihilation of the Los Angeles Lakers later, and it was a wrap! What was the biggest game of the season looked like an embarassing display of a broken team. And I aint gonna front- the Celtics defense really is the best in the game, with Garnett (26pts), Allen (26pts), and Pierce (17pts). But the LA buses that tour the city with "Kobe Diem" sprawled on its exterior leave us to wonder- where was our MVP? His hot hand in the first quarter soon vanished, and the shot off the dribble was not enough to establish a solid foundation. Plus, Gasol & Odom did not come hard enough to meet the all-around phenomenal peformance & defense as set by the Celtics. I urge Lakers management (who slept on Garnett - on the market last year) to re-strategize its defensive artillery, and look to Bynam to strengthen it for next year. We comin' back baby!

Thursday, June 12, 2008

Last shall be first.

I'm in the Rivera basement and all I hear is the humming of the ac accompanied by the melodic tapping of keyboards as students thirst for the knowledge that will earn them the grade. I haven't listened to music in the past 48 hours - that's a record!

The library is my studio.

P.S. The lakers better win tonight.

Saturday, June 7, 2008

Love is in the air

My Lakers aint slippin when there's moves to make.

Last Thursday, the Boston Celtics saw a 98-88 win to take a 1-0 series lead for 2008 NNBA finals. Stay cool LA - we're coming back on Sunday to show these mothafckas what we're all about.
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Our strengths include a not-so-secret asset by the name of Kobe. As reigning league MVP, winning three championships with the Lakers, he needs this title to secure his legacy as one of the league's top 10 all- time players. And though our bench players are better than the Celtics, youthful exuberance and all, admittedly they were looking cottony-soft. Vujac made a positive impact and played hard, but Walton, Turiaf, and Farmar looked as if they were shocked to see players in green. With only Bryant, Walton, and Fisher as experienced Finals players thus far, its most definitely time to step it up. Yes Boston has been down for awhile, but when you say "Lakers" in my presence- anything short of CHAMPIONSHIP is unacceptable.

So Come Sunday, you know what team I'm on.
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And I'm bringing the books as well cause Finals Week is coming up &
I am not one to fck with my friend.
YADIG




-Leslie the truth Dizon

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

i love these honeys might as well call me mama bear

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thumbs up for dudes who rock:
-clean fades
-timbs, af1's, alifes
-brooklyn
-new era fitteds
-white tees
-hood yet classy? you get the L seal of approval!
I like gummy bears & biggie smalls.

among other thangs. Business was slower today, so it allowed me the opportunity to deposit a couple checks in the bank. Concerned with my financial well-being, I asked the teller to disclose the exact amount in my savings - a sad number indeed. Still going hard for mine though- the memorial day weekend I worked 32 hours @ Nike before heading back to classroom. Upon the realization that a capitalist mindset is the root cause of corporate corruption, I came to the conclusion that I am so happy poor.

For now.
What sustains me is the freedom in knowing that money doesn't create success. The freedom to make it will.

note: I value your friendship. Thanks for staying true.

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

come get to this

good lovin' aint easy to come
I just discovered Marvin Gaye's "Come get to this"
It sounds so sweet
I think I will play that on my honeymoon

Flying Lotus (Dilla Tribute) "Fall in love"
it gets deeper..

[Underground] like a deep sea pearl
[Untampered] working hard for my seed

---> "I'm doing it for myself, if you don't take risks & make moves you'll never be as happy as you could be. Live your dreams, that's what I'm doing. We all have it in us."

(always wit the profound touch)
insert: doorknocker
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leslie is like..
heavy (on the mind)
shinin' (on they eye)
and as seen in the boroughs of NY

p.s. how can we end human suffering?

Sunday, May 18, 2008

Words of Wisdom
Based upon the strength of a nation
Conquer the enemy armed with education
Protect yourself, reach for what you wanna do
Know thy self, teach by what we've been through
Armed with the knowledge of the place we've been

(Hip is the knowledge; hop is the movement)
The American Dream, though it seems like it's attainable
They're pulling your sleeve, don't believe, 'cause it'll strangle yah
Made to feel inferior, but we're superior
Break the chains in our brains that made us fear yah
Pledge allegiance to a flag that neglects us
Honor a man that refuse to respect us

(It takes a Nation of millions to hold us back!!)
we gotta start teaching children
That they can be all that they wanna to be
There's much more to life than just poverty

(Hip is the knowledge; Hop is the movement)

As a first-generation Filipina-American, the pursuit of the American dream began with my first salute to the American flag, back in the first grade. The education system is that elusive tool where the grandaughter of a town-market-seller-tindahan ni aling __ can equip herself with the tools to open up shop- even in the front yard of the home of the brave. With the prospect of graduation looming even closer ahead, these untangible myths that appear as one-dimensional text bound in books, are now given the opportunity to rise into full form & put in context - 15 years later..

Now, as a 21 year old Filipina-American with an agenda of goals, I stand just beyond the threshold, laced with a college degree. Knockin on the doors of the powers that be - tryin to get a slice of the economic pie. Does the U.S. education system guarantee direct manifestation of the American Dream? Absolutely not! But you better believe -
we'll keep knockin...

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

White tee Wednesdays

Daily Menu:
-Real Sht
-Real Sht
-Real Sht

[Chorus: Yummy - De La Soul]
Much more is what we got in store
Just believe me
"And what we have is much more than they can see"
"And what we have is much more than they can see"

De La Soul produces the finest quality anthems. I owe much to the basslines in songs such as "Tryin People" and "Much more" as collectively, they've been my anthems throughout the schoolyear. In retrospect, the key difference between L Boogie in 2007 and L in '08 is this: I've found my inner peace. Cutting off loose ties, practicing patience, and minding my own business. Replace weakness for strength, I've mastered the art of Independence: honey I aint depending on anyone for my source of happiness. My main source of strength lies in Christ alone.

I got my mind right and my skin is glowing. SUE ME.

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

just sayin

"You say you love me but is it really real
Would you, fix me green tea if I'm feelin ill
Would you, give me a back rub to sooth after a long day
Dinner by candlelight but your the main entree
And if so I do the same with other treats to give you
Trailin rose pedals from your door to beneath your pillow
With a bucket of champagne on your night stand
Experience with someone who want in they life span, the same"

-Slum Village

Sunday, May 11, 2008

Saturday, August 9 - LA

"Leslie Dizon, thank you for using Ticketmaster. Your order number is ***********"
OH yes yes, y'all. Admittedly, I been heavily anticipating the release of ROCK THE BELLS TICKETS ever since I first caught news of the artist lineup. To name a few:

1. A Tribe Called Quest
2. The Pharcyde
3. De La Soul
4. Nas

That's all love right there. I'm talking top notch creme of the crop FAVORITES of mine. Countless playlists, bus rides, evenings at home, and time spent materializing plans have been actualized and accompanied by their sounds. Collectively, these artists embody THE TRUTH. I could go on and on..

WORD TO YA MOTHA.
but I be fascinatin when I be updatin'..

[HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY]
[Midterm Mayhem]
[Fine Honey Alert]
--
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Yo tell your mom I said hi. Not only that, appreciate the beautiful woman God has Blessed you with. Appreciate, respect, admire, and be inspired by yours. For without her, would you really be here right now? GOD KNOWS YO MAMA IS THE TRUTH!

p.s. Midterm at 7:45 tomorrow is about to get smashed.

XXO

Friday, May 9, 2008

Monday, April 28, 2008

Confessions of a Humble Hustler

Yo for the next month, your girl is married to the hustle.
Take a peek at what I'm working with, week 5:
3 midterms, 2 quizzes, 4 homework assignments, and holding down a steady job.

Yes I rise like the sun, and see more than three dimension.
That's just an image in the mirror; where's your eternal reflection?
Question essential, fine tune your fate to reach your maximum potential.
Do you understand me? My name is Leslie Dizon, one life to live baby (what's really good).
I humbly ask you to see how precious time is; time is the most valuable asset we are given. Check out the formula for a second:
Excellent time managment + unwaivering focus = most dangerous recipe for achieving your goals. Curiously I flirt with the future and its infinite possibilities. I see myself, self-made businesswoman. I see the house on the hill, and I see family & friends & mad love to give. How many people do you know, who came to do, what they really say they gonna DO? I strive to fulfill a long ass list of things to do.

The choice is yours.
In the meantime, catch me in the library, with my head in the books kicking knowledge in a simple white tee.

Drop (with authority)



Because nothing turns me on more than a go-getta with a gameplan.

Thursday, April 17, 2008

King

We only got one life to live, baby, let's live through our seed.
King's checklist:

-Refined
-naturally asks who my Top5 producers are
-hip hop connoisseur; a defender of its artform
-Simple and disciplined, only to turn violent and original
in His art
-Structured Hustler/Dreamer/Striver
-Intellectuals, please..im stressin' this
-J Dilla Lover
-It would be ill heading home to our 19th century brownstown rowhouse
In Brooklyn!
-Lovemaking instrumentals, please..and we can live through our seed
-note: 99.09% of the target demographic may not meet these requirements, and its fine. We can recover, because when king meets queen, it is not who they are at the moment, but everything that they are capable of becoming..."SV is on that love tip!"

Revelation 3:17

['Because you say, "I am rich, and have become wealthy, and have need of nothing," and you do not know that you are wretched and miserable and poor and blind and naked]

Does the essence, the very heart of the matter, shine through raw?
Or are you merely accepting the appearance, without any effort to gain true understanding?

A lot of cats these days floss, forever faking the funk types who claim to 'stunt', but in reality have no real back bone.

Musical reference #1- Murs "And this is for""

"I remember diamonds used to be girl's best friend
Enslaving Black children with them third world gems
I don't care about your rims, kids ride Big Wheels
Up until they learn balance and it's obvious you haven't
With way more ego than you have true talent"

It's L.Boogie-esque to proclaim, but knowing my condition is the reason I must change. Education is a powerful tool; open minds see clear resolution, where the average man finds cloudy confusion. Challenge the status quo. Never stop asking questions. Once you gain a clear vision of your goals, and in your mind's eye you witness its manifestation? Like Nas said, "the world is yours".

And it's so easy to believe.
For my ancestors, bringing the gifts, I am the dream..
For my future children, providing for the seed, I am the hope..
For the people, who live and let live, I am one..

........
on another page

Monday, April 7, 2008

I won't stop

I'm like a clock when I tick and I tock*
You'll be pressin rewind, you can never see mine
Keep your eyes focused, you can't touch this or quote this
Style is crazy bogus so you can't try to approach this*
You spoiled with petals on ya bath water, love
Reflect the light from the sky high above

Where my longevity hip hop lovin' honeys At?
The In-it-to-WIN-it, not in it for the minute type philosophical wax
True to it, not new to it type originators?
An almost extinct, rare find indeed.
Fck a short term brotha, expiration dates is just another mountain to climb.
I'm wit the everlasting, no doubt about it type game.

Like Professor Jasso (Bus 109) says, "Strategy is everything".
Fully in-tune with the sun, stars, and moon, the weather forecast
is hotter than the temperature cookin' inside ya toasters:
"Strategy Formulation is the development of long-range plans for the effective management of environmental opportunities and threats, in light of corporate strengths and weaknesses (SWOT)." (Hunger 12) "Strategic Management and Business Policy"

Keepin' one finger on the record, and another on the pulse.

Monday, March 31, 2008

Light my fire

Guess who took 5 courses last quarter? (21 units)
Guess who held a part-time job pushin' shoeboxes? (swoosh)
and guess who received 4 A's (sincerely yours)
Add a little sugar, honeysuckle and
A great big expression of happiness.

God is GOOD.
Everyday driven by a desire to build
I can let this moment pass me by, or I can GET DOWN & TRY.
In this lifetime.

"Kiss my hand before I roll my dice"
-Masta Killa

Thursday, March 27, 2008

BIG L

" I make moves and Boss all across the world "
Pictured: Brooklyn-Based Sonic Fabric dress [made of recycled audio cassette tapes]
and the best earrings known to man. [w/o breakin' the bank!]
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Turn me up!

Spring Break

The Agenda:
-Work ..Starting today I get 40% off at NIKE. Holla!
-Spring Cleaning [Lake Elsinore and MoVal areas]
-Shop! [Neck and wrist laced up]
-"Swims at the Reebok gym tone your frame up”
-Scoop up one of them Jabbawockeez brothas*
-Play! [good games, write, read, run, ball]

Thursday, March 13, 2008

Posc 186 (10 pg) Research Paper: 93%
Business Law Midterm II: 90%
Soc 151 quiz avg (5): 97%

Did sleep produce aNy of the above?
Hecknah!
Sacrifice, struggle, and desire did.
"If you see it and you like it, ITS YOURS"

heavy d

So Yesterday Mami dearest told me, “Don’t be so excited to work
Leslie. You’ll be workin for the rest of your life!!”
Babymama actually got me Much More excited, as I pictured myself
Building my future, and holding the keys towards brighter days with each step.
I could potentially fulfill every dream and build a team.
Everyday race towards the prize,
Each sunrise standing as an opportunity to test my thesis
Because one lives not in pure theory alone

Later I quipped, “Mami do you listen to music a lot?”
I spit something like:
“Horn’s that announce the revolution is near
So listeners with an efficient ear
Are listening,
Eardrums open for christening”

Mami paused for a second and said,
That’s HEAVY

You know it. Like Love you inspire me to be the higher me.

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

instrumental

Live
The mental state in relation to the human condition
Is over-empowering
Mere words carry weight like diamonds,
Distributing pure prisms of truth
When held close enough to the light

The highest elevation
I’m above all that commercial nonsense
To show you what’s True

Instrumentals be playin rough with my eardrums:
1.RJD2- Ghostwriter
2.Dilla- Gobstopper
3.Pete Rock- Midnight and you
(Pure sex)

Also for my Shaolin Shooters and ma crooks in Queens:
1.Masta Ace- Good ole lovin'
2.Edgar Allen Floe- Shine

"I'm like a maid when she cooks and cleans,
cuz its about to be a wrap from the looks of things"

Tuesday, March 4, 2008

All day

One of Dilla’s finest, “Wont Do” is a masterpiece in my eyes.
I mean, philosophically speaking?
Make my cipher complete get me moving mentally type jam?
Inadvertently stirring me to reflect on my own state as I gravitate to elevate my environment type beat?
You know it. My all-time, all-day favorite.

Timeless

Friday, February 29, 2008

what is

The look of
That hip hop is a shooting star
Is a thing to which the masses mistake
and fail to vocalize, much less harmonize
In a crowded street, allowing many and any
To vocalize
Regardless, I’ll stay forever resilient, respectfully remaining
Outside the target market
Wrestling with unseen forces of dismay
Overcoming the seasons with delicious vinyl

like love you inspire me to be the higher me.

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

yo

YOU KNOW WHAT TIME IT IS.

Comprehend the present.
I'm a brain rockin' ear shockin' dollar stockin use my time
For the tick tockin crew talkin young lady .. and I get it
while the giving is good. Lacin' these lyrical gems comes
natural, wishing to express and reflect what is ACTUAL.